I am not your safe haven.

was there when nobody could see…
I was silent when you needed someone to listen…
I was tenderness, I was truth, I was real…
But now I need to speak for myself.
Because even a patient heart gets tired.
Even someone who loves needs to choose herself.
[Verse 1]
For two months, I stayed right here
With an open heart, hiding nothing
I gave my time, I gave my word
Everything I knew how to give
I was gentle when I could be
I was strong when I had to be
I never played with feelings
I never gave you only half of me
I wrote with my soul
Turned my feelings into songs
Two melodies, two stories
Every note carrying my heart
And while I was pouring out my feelings
You called me something special
“My radiant poetess”
“My love”… words that felt so real
[Pre-Chorus]
But something changed inside of me
When that request came to my door
And I realized that maybe my presence
Was only remembered when you needed something more
[Chorus]
I’m tired…
Tired of feeling sorry for someone
Who never felt the same for me
Tired of being a shelter
For someone who only comes when they need to flee
I’m tired…
Of being your safe harbor when it’s convenient
My heart is not an emergency address
And my kindness is not something you can spend
I can love you deeply
Without letting you use me again
I can be sweet and still say no
Because protecting my soul
Is also a form of love
[Verse 2]
Don’t mistake my kindness
For someone who accepts anything
I may have tears in my eyes
But I still have courage in my choices
I know how to be patient
But patience is not submission
I know how to forgive
But I won’t hand my heart back
To someone who turns tenderness into obligation
I don’t need beautiful words
If they don’t walk beside the truth
I don’t want perfect promises
I want honesty from you
Because love shouldn’t arrive
Only when something is missing
Someone who truly wants to be with me
Doesn’t appear only when they need help
[Pre-Chorus]
And maybe you will never understand
Everything I placed inside this story
But I know what I gave
And nobody needs to validate my memory
I know who I was.
I know how much I tried.
And nobody can take that away from me.
[Chorus]
I’m tired…
Tired of feeling sorry for someone
Who never felt the same for me
Tired of being a shelter
For someone who only comes when they need to flee
I’m tired…
Of being your safe harbor when it’s convenient
My heart is not an emergency address
And my kindness is not something you can spend
I can love you deeply
Without letting you use me again
I can be sweet and still say no
Because protecting my soul
Is also a form of love
[Bridge — beat rises]
No…
I will not accept it silently
Anything that destroys my soul
No…
I will not let anyone
Make me question my own worth
I have survived difficult days
I have rebuilt pieces of myself
And if God gave me strength to keep going
You will not be the one who brings me down
My courage was never born from anyone’s approval
My determination does not depend on you
My strength comes from God
And He taught